I had my fourth Art Therapy Session today with the lovely Lori. I nearly didn’t go, I was so close to pulling out. One good thing about healing through my trauma is I’m learning to observe it. The hard part can be catching it in time before it takes me under. If I had listened to that part for much longer it would as it always does get its own way and I would have missed out on a truly wonderful art therapy session. What makes our sessions special is that Lori is also an adoptee. I’m so blessed to be having these professional art therapy sessions. For a year now I’ve found it hard to sit still for long. I’ve said to many people its like I’m floating, flitting about and not able to land long enough. I wonder if this was gearing me up for what I’m going though now. And when I look back at the 14 year old and feel into what she was going through I have only love and understanding for her. I also have admiration for her for finding a way to cope on her own and not to give up as mixed up and messed up she felt she found a way to cope. It just sucks that its stuck.. But I now understand exactly why it so stuck, and that’s all apart of this journey too.. I know I’m flitting around in this post so do excuse me. I have to get it out or I won’t. Writing is healing and I would love ore adoptees to do this so this is what is keeping e brave. Typing about me at 14 years old is a big deal! I’ve kept all of that inside because I felt so bad and guilty about what happened at that age. It was also the age that I discovered my Birth Mother was deceased recently having been found at the bottom of a canal in Leicester which is the town she lived. ig because want more people to So I’m so grateful for todays session. It was perfect timing too as had booked to see the screening of the Reckoning of The Primal Wound afterwards. I haven’t read the book however just a few snippets from this book hit me like a tonne of bricks. It was with fellow adoptee and hypnotherapist that spoke about the frozen baby, when I heard Steve mention the frozen baby my attention was taken and I private messaged him If you check out my podcast with Steve it was which again I feel is this part of me somehow seems to punish me

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